I can’t believe I wasted so much time
Hello strangers! I have been quiet on here but I have actually been loud in my life lately. Manifesting and working on some things in my life that I want to see in a better place. I decided to make a huge life change and I am speaking positive over it now that I will benefit tremendously and I will have an abundance of success in this new journey. I feel hesitant to tell anyone. I have only told two of my friends about the change and they were both beyond supportive and right away congratulated me.
I feel so scared to make changes and try because I don’t want to let myself down. I want to make myself proud and be someone my younger self can look at and be motivated by. Somewhere in my mind I believe that if I don’t attempt something then I can’t let myself down. In reality I am constantly disappointing myself everyday by not tapping into my potential. I know I am so talented and capable of so much but I don’t want to fail. I hate being laughed at and made fun of if I don’t do something right. I get really uncomfortable around more successful people because I don’t like feeling inferior. I am not inferior to anybody though and I have to constantly remind myself that we are all humans. None of us are invincible, none of us are immortal.
I have been working a lot more lately on my self reassurance and self confidence. Everyday I take some time out to recognize myself and build myself up. It has helped me so much in my daily problem solving and controlling my reactions to the roller coaster that is life. Remembering everything I have been through and made it through, I am amazing. I look back and I remember thinking in those moments, “How am I going to make it through this?” I always did. Those temporary hardships were just that, temporary. It felt like forever in the moment though. It truly felt permanent and like that was my life. If I could tell my past self anything, it would be a reminder that no matter what I will make it through and the way I carry myself through it all is something to proud of alone.
It may sound conceited and like I am full of myself but that is because someone who is not proud of themselves and lacks self confidence has taught you that building up yourself and loving yourself is wrong. They have projected their self doubt and influenced others in a negative way. I want to break that stigma. Building yourself up and being proud of yourself is mandatory. MANDATORY. You have the world at your fingertips and can do anything you set your mind to. If there is something you want to learn, start watching videos on YouTube. Start doing research and reading about it. Allow yourself to learn and be confident in your ability to grow. You don’t have to tell anyone you are trying to learn something new, you can do this with yourself. If you don’t pick it up or you decide after the research that it’s not for you then move on to the next thing you want to learn/try. Keep going and learning and growing. Even after you learn something new, move on to the next thing and try something else. There is no reason to waste away everyday of your life because of fear of failing. We all have an expiration date so live your life and enjoy until then.
What is something new you would like to learn about or learn how to do? What haven’t you started researching and learning it? What has held you back? If that didn’t work out or you moved forward and learned about it, what would be the next thing you would like to learn/try? Where would you start with your learning and trying?
Okay, love you guys byeeeee.
