New Year, What Am I Doing?

I am already frustrated. I wrote three paragraphs and then I went to publish my first blog EVER… and it was deleted. I was ready to throw in the towel for the day and just forget it. I am not one to do the whole ‘New Year Resolution’ thing but I did get a spark of motivation because it is January 1st and the start of a new year. I figured it was time to make some kind of change. I have been reading “Manifest: 7 Steps To Living Your Best Life” by Roxie Nafousi and this book has made me realize how much I have that I do nothing with. It is baffling the time I have wasted telling myself I will start tomorrow or I will get what I need to get done tomorrow and then never following through. Not to mention finally following through and feeling excited and everything getting deleted before I could publish it…..

I can’t remember where I saw this but I once read something about building trust with yourself. For example, telling yourself you will put your clothes away as soon as the dryer is done and then actually doing it once the dryer finishes. An example I would love to say I do but I barely bring myself to put the clothes in the dryer let alone take them out and fold them while they are warm. Every time we tell ourselves we are going to do something and then don’t follow through, we are creating trust issues within ourselves. I am beyond guilty of giving myself trust issues. I am in such a toxic relationship with myself and that is something I really want to change starting today.

I have no clue where to start or how to properly build this trust back up with myself… and to be honest, I didn’t even finish the book about it that I told myself I was going to finish. I couldn’t even tell you what the book was called or if I had a physical or digital copy of it. I was going to start with this blog and tell myself I will start writing and posting but I don’t feel like I can keep my word to actually follow through. I think I am going to start building trust with myself with something small like keeping water next to me from now on no matter where I am at and I guess just take it from there.

What about you? Do you participate in New Year resolutions? Why or why not? How do you feel about your relationship with yourself and do you feel like you can trust yourself? Comment below or journal to yourself.

Okay, love you guys byeeeeee

-Izzie